Don’t get this wrong friend, I’m not whining or complaining to you, I just need to say that I have 8 radiation treatments left and I thank you for being here for me.
At this point the sore throat is above a 9-close to a ten. It’s rather difficult to swallow. There is a new normal wrinkle—a cough that really hurts— it’s really just a mega sore throat.

I will embrace the last 8 radiation treatments with thanksgiving. This illness has been only what it is, a temporary condition and nothing more. At the same time it has been much much more.

The 4 weeks following my final radiation treatment on Christmas Eve are the roads back. Slowly I will return to normal.

But dig it, I don’t want the old normal. Lot’s wife (Genesis 19:26) didn’t listen, ‘do not look or go back’—that’s what I think the Lord would like of me. Don’t forget, and don’t go back. In there lives my purpose driven thought process. Give me a purpose Father.

I lack the tools and imagination of a child. Would that I could magically make a story come alive with a crescendo’d high note as this chapter comes to a close. I miss those gems of living—imagination and dreams.

I don’t know what’s to come. I don’t know what I want. Purhaps that’s what I want—to know what I want and go for it. My desirer at this moment, Dec. 15, 2014 10:26 PM is that where ever I go, (and that may be just staying put) I want this lesson and blessin to not fade away.

Thank you my friend for your support.